Thanksgiving 2017 - Life as it should be

Another Thanksgiving has come and gone; another year almost gone. Time just keeps on going; life as it should be. However, my life just doesn't seem to be as it should be. Yes, I am so very thankful for my children and grandchildren. They all live within a few miles of where I live. What a blessing that so many parents don't have! And I am so very thankful for my son and daughter-in-love who had it in their hearts to take me in to be an integral part of their family. And yet, there is always something missing. Life should be that I am living my golden years with my husband, who I always thought I would grow old with. Life should be that we are enjoying new relationships with our grown children, who have grown up to be wonderful adults. Life should be that we are enjoying our precious grandchildren together. After all, they are not just my grandchildren, but ours. Life should be that we get to enjoy the holidays together with the family that began the day we married and has grown to what it is today. Life should be that Thanksgiving is a time to be thankful together for all God's many blessings over the past 41 years. It should be a day Ken and I celebrate together the day he asked me to marry him. It should be a day of giving thanks to God and a romantic day remembering how He brought us together. I remember every Thanksgiving how Ken spontaneously asked me to marry him, even though he was planning to do it on Christmas. We just couldn't wait another whole month. We were too in love. Life should be that he is here to say those words I long to hear again, "I love you." But for now, I have to adjust to this life without him. I have to live as best I can as the Lord would want me to, and as Ken would want me to: counting my blessings and being thankful for each one. I have to say as Paul said, "for to me, to live is Christ and to die is gain." I have to keep living this life for my Lord until God calls me home, and then life will finally be as it should be.