February 2, 2014

Three years ago we laid your body to rest in the cold, frozen ground of a blizzard which matched the feelings of my heart: cold, numb and frozen. At the same time I knew you weren't in that cold body that went into the ground, but you were more alive than ever in the place you always wanted to be; no more worries or cares of life for you. Just like the ground eventually thawed, so did my heart, and I began to feel again. Except it was mostly pain that I felt; a pain that has perhaps lessened somewhat but none-the-less still there. But I have also been able to feel what a great love God has for both of us. He has always been our Best Friend, but now that friendship with Him has become so much more real. Especially for you. But for me, also. He has helped me through so much, comforting and encouraging me, helping me know what to do when I don't know on my own, being so near I can feel Him with me. I know the coming years will bring many challenges without you, but Jesus will help me. And I know that every day without you is another day closer to being with you! As you said, "We'll be together, and with Jesus it will be forever"!