FEBRUARY 2, 2013

It's been two years today since we first remembered what a wonderful man Ken Davis was. I have been told that things get easier with time, but I have found that the more time passes the more I miss him, which really makes more sense to me anyway. I have been thinking a lot about how the Bible, when talking about marriage, said the two shall become one flesh - no longer two but one. When you have one of anything and you take part of it away, it is no longer a whole. Ken and I became one when we got married and now that he is gone, I cannot be whole. A piece of me is just missing. The other thing I have been thinking about is Adam and Eve. God created everything He created before creating man and thought everything was good. Then He created man and all He created was good, EXCEPT, it was NOT good for man to be alone. Here God had a relationship with Adam and even walked with him in the evening. God was physically with him and yet God said Adam was alone and it was not good. Nothing satisfied Adam's loneliness, except a wife, so God made Eve for him. God created man and woman to need each other. They are incomplete without each other. Creation was not complete until God created woman for man, and then He could rest because then it was ALL good. So, it lets me know that it's ok that I am not complete without my Ken. God created me this way. Yes, I have my God, whom I love with all my heart. He is my Friend, my Counselor, my Guide, my Strength, my Fortress, my Whatever I Need! But He is the One who created man to be lonely without the woman He gave him, so I must be created to be lonely without the man God gave me. However, like a parent holds and comforts their child in times of pain, my Father holds and comforts me in my times of pain and gives me the strength to go on. Yes, it's been two years of being alone and missing the wonderful man that God blessed me with almost 36 years ago. But it also means I am two years closer to our Reunion Day!! I can hardly wait!