FEBRUARY 19, 2013

Remembering this day 36 years ago and this chapter we read to each other as part of our vows: "1. If I could speak in any language in heaven or on earth but didn't love others, I would only be making meaningless noise like a loud gong or a clanging cymbal. 2. If I had the gift of prophecy, and if I knew all the mysteries of the future and knew everything about everything, but didn't love others, what good would I be? And if I had the gift of faith so that I could speak to a mountain and make it move, without love I would be no good to anybody. 3. If I gave everything I have to the poor and even sacrificed my body, I could boast about it; but if I didn't love others, I would be of no value whatsoever. 4. Love is patient and kind. Love is not jealous or boastful or proud 5. or rude. Love does not demand its own way. Love is not irritable, and it keeps no record of when it has been wronged. 6. It is never glad about injustice but rejoices whenever the truth wins out. 7. Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance. 8. Love will last forever, but prophecy and speaking in unknown languages and special knowledge will all disappear. 9. Now we know only a little, and even the gift of prophecy reveals little! 10. But when the end comes, these special gifts will all disappear. 11. It's like this: When I was a child I spoke and thought and reasoned as a child does. But when I grew up, I put away childish things. 12. Now we see things imperfectly as in a poor mirror, but then we will see everything with perfect clarity. All that I know now is partial and incomplete, but then I will know everything completely, just as God knows me now. 13. There are three things that will endure - faith, hope, and love -- and the greatest of these is love." I Corinthians 13 (NLT) v. 8: "Love will last forever..." - I WILL love you forever, my darling!

FEBRUARY 2, 2013

It's been two years today since we first remembered what a wonderful man Ken Davis was. I have been told that things get easier with time, but I have found that the more time passes the more I miss him, which really makes more sense to me anyway. I have been thinking a lot about how the Bible, when talking about marriage, said the two shall become one flesh - no longer two but one. When you have one of anything and you take part of it away, it is no longer a whole. Ken and I became one when we got married and now that he is gone, I cannot be whole. A piece of me is just missing. The other thing I have been thinking about is Adam and Eve. God created everything He created before creating man and thought everything was good. Then He created man and all He created was good, EXCEPT, it was NOT good for man to be alone. Here God had a relationship with Adam and even walked with him in the evening. God was physically with him and yet God said Adam was alone and it was not good. Nothing satisfied Adam's loneliness, except a wife, so God made Eve for him. God created man and woman to need each other. They are incomplete without each other. Creation was not complete until God created woman for man, and then He could rest because then it was ALL good. So, it lets me know that it's ok that I am not complete without my Ken. God created me this way. Yes, I have my God, whom I love with all my heart. He is my Friend, my Counselor, my Guide, my Strength, my Fortress, my Whatever I Need! But He is the One who created man to be lonely without the woman He gave him, so I must be created to be lonely without the man God gave me. However, like a parent holds and comforts their child in times of pain, my Father holds and comforts me in my times of pain and gives me the strength to go on. Yes, it's been two years of being alone and missing the wonderful man that God blessed me with almost 36 years ago. But it also means I am two years closer to our Reunion Day!! I can hardly wait!