Lighthouse of beauty, Lighthouse of the sea
bring daddy home to where he needs to be.
Show him the path, let Your light guide the way,
let him break through all the winds and the waves.
The storm seems so strong, the waves are so long,
but You won't let my daddy stay gone.
People are searching from left and from right,
but only You can supply the light.
Lighthouse of beauty, Lighthouse of the sea,
Please, oh please, bring daddy home safe to me
--Bethany Davis
Friday, January 27, 2012
ONE YEAR LATER - JANUARY 27, 2012
One year ago today I said goodbye to the man I love more than anyone on this earth. It was so hard, but I remember telling him as he looked lovingly into my eyes breathing his last breaths, that it was okay, to go be with his friend Jesus, that I would be okay. I didn't have a clue how hard it would be to be "okay", and there have been times this past year when I didn't do so well at it. But today as I am thinking about the events of this day one year ago, even though there is a huge void in all our lives, I have a sense of joy way down underneath the sadness of missing him so much - a joy that he did go to be with his friend Jesus, the One he loves above all else, and thus began the greatest adventure he has ever had.
I feel like God spoke to my heart a few days ago that I should not focus on the hurting and pain I've gone through this year, and am still experiencing, but that I should focus on the joy and happiness Ken must have gone through this year, which must seem like only seconds in the light of eternity. So today as our kids and grandkids (we have five now, by the way) and I get together to remember our loving husband, Dad, and PaPa, we want to try to imagine what great adventures and happiness he is now experiencing. It reminds me of the song, "I Can Only Imagine". I think, however, it would be better to say, "I can't even imagine". The wonderfuless of heaven is totally beyond what we can only attempt to imagine! But there is such joy and comfort in that attempt, and to think about the fact that we have a place prepared for us there as well, where we also can be with our friend Jesus and each other forever!
I will continue to "Cling to Jesus" as I especially have this past year because I love Him so much. He has truly been my source of strength. Someday I will enjoy that place prepared for me and be with the One I have always loved above all else AND with the one I love more than any other person - Ken Davis.
One day when I was thinking about how much I missed him, and was sad at the thought that he probably didn't miss me because, after all, there is no sadness in heaven; I felt God speaking to me something like this: Oh, but he does miss you, it's just not sad for him to think of you. When he thinks about you it is with an excitement to be able to show you all the magnificent things he is experiencing, and it is with a happy anticipation to be with you again in this wonderful place. And for him, he will only have time to just turn around and you will be there. I intend to keep that appointment. We hope to see you there, too!!
I feel like God spoke to my heart a few days ago that I should not focus on the hurting and pain I've gone through this year, and am still experiencing, but that I should focus on the joy and happiness Ken must have gone through this year, which must seem like only seconds in the light of eternity. So today as our kids and grandkids (we have five now, by the way) and I get together to remember our loving husband, Dad, and PaPa, we want to try to imagine what great adventures and happiness he is now experiencing. It reminds me of the song, "I Can Only Imagine". I think, however, it would be better to say, "I can't even imagine". The wonderfuless of heaven is totally beyond what we can only attempt to imagine! But there is such joy and comfort in that attempt, and to think about the fact that we have a place prepared for us there as well, where we also can be with our friend Jesus and each other forever!
I will continue to "Cling to Jesus" as I especially have this past year because I love Him so much. He has truly been my source of strength. Someday I will enjoy that place prepared for me and be with the One I have always loved above all else AND with the one I love more than any other person - Ken Davis.
One day when I was thinking about how much I missed him, and was sad at the thought that he probably didn't miss me because, after all, there is no sadness in heaven; I felt God speaking to me something like this: Oh, but he does miss you, it's just not sad for him to think of you. When he thinks about you it is with an excitement to be able to show you all the magnificent things he is experiencing, and it is with a happy anticipation to be with you again in this wonderful place. And for him, he will only have time to just turn around and you will be there. I intend to keep that appointment. We hope to see you there, too!!
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